DISCLAIMER: I will be getting into religion a little bit. If you have something against this, you are free to ignore what I say. Any flaming of any sort will be deleted. Yes, I have that kind of power. It may be censorship, but that's a totally different issue. Any censorship comments will be censored as well.
Lately, I just haven't been feeling up there. There are several reasons behind this. One of which was getting fired. Now, the word fired isn't official, and it may not even be the right word, but that's how I see it. It might have had something to do about what I said, and that's the reason I think I got fired. I've just been feeling really down about this, seeing as I have no income at the moment.
Another thing that comes up is stress from schoolwork, namely, the English paper I have to do. Had I not decided to put it off a little bit during the strike, it wouldn't be so bad, but I did and I'm a little bit behind and really stressed out about it. I just want it to be done and over with.
A third thing (hence the big red disclaimer) is about my faith and religion, a bit of both, I guess. I'm a Catholic and not just lately, but for a while, I've had trouble keeping my faith going. Really, this has been going on for a while. It's been better lately, but I'd like to do more. I don't feel I'm doing enough with my life to make God happy. I'm sure He loves me, but I still don't feel I'm doing enough for Him. I'm trying to start with various things, like joining up our newly formed youth group. Maybe, I'd like to get out of the Catholic church, but still be Christian, because I've always found Mass uninteresting. This may have something to do with not having the best priest (which has changed recently; he got replaced and I like the new guy more), but I've always found Mass to be too traditional and ceremonial.
I was talking about this with a friend on the way home, and it made me feel a little better, and I talked about it with my mom as well. I'll be okay. Posting this also helps a lot, it helps me let it all out.
What I'm really looking forward to right now is the 25th, which is the day after the research essays are due, there's no school and I have my birthday party that day. I need a good celebration right now. Maybe I just need to get rid of all this stress and relax.
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Too traditional? You should come to my church sometime. It's anything but traditional. It's on Saturday night, so you can still go to mass with your family. Or maybe you could try Northview (I go there once in a while, too).
Actually, what would be perfect is Doxa. It's on Sunday nights, and it's pretty much a youth-oriented church service. Or rather, it was. It's (unfortunately) not running this year. It might start up again sometime, who knows.
I've been to Northview once before, and I actually liked it. Maybe one day we can arrange something.
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